As I try to summarize all the emotions that we both let each other know through the internet, it takes me to one decision to let things happen and not act upon it. I wanted so bad yesterday to go home and resign. My mother called and I told my brother too. I didn’t get excited when my mother started to say things that she wanted me to do when I come home, but that’s just her. I mean mothers will always make us do things that will keep us busy and are good for us. I went home earlier than the normal time that I should go home because it was too hard for me to carry such weight of non-stop replay of everything that he just told me on Sunday. Thinking about it now even makes me shiver right now. I had a lot of questions but it all boils down to two words, my fault.
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What will you do when you’re choking in your dream? You don’t worry that much because you’ll wake up from that bad dream and realize that you can still breathe.. but it wasn’t for me. It was my first time experiencing it and it felt really bad that I can’t breathe and I felt helpless because I was alone in my room.
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Our private transport, Saleem was busy earlier this evening so I had no choice but to walk to the mall. I guess it could help me a little while thinking about him and lose a few fats I gained the previous days just laying in bed and crying. While I was walking, I couldn’t help but appreciate how beautiful the full moon was.
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There are times like today when I just want to start anew and never look back; fool myself that I don’t know my friends or anybody from the past 25 years of my life. I don’t know how people call it but I get this feeling every two or three months to just walk away from everyone and everything. I want to go to a place where nobody knows me, cut from social media, leave all the devices for communication, and just exist.. But I can’t, can I?
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