Was I born unlucky? Or am I made to be not be 100% happy? Because I feel like everytime I try to feel free and happy,something bad happens next and I know a lot of people suffer from this as well but mine’s the worst. It’s the fastest reaction. For example, I was so happy and confident right now then after a few minutes, something upsetting will follow. So sometimes, I feel like I shouldn’t even expect or to look forward for my day to be better even though I say, “Bring it on life! Start the day with positivity! Good vibes!” Does anybody understand what I’m going through? Or maybe I’m so sensitive that I feel like I’m still a child locked inside a young adult’s body trying to challenge life but I just can’t still absorb and address the challenges like a young adult should be. I still cry everytime I get upset and I can’t help it. It’s so natural with me and it’s becoming a problem That I can’t endure. Being abroad makes it worse. I don’t have my friends here. I am not strong without them, that’s how I feel. My significant other’s not here as well. I ain’t got nobody to embrace after an upsetting day at work.
I guess all I can do for now is to try to be strong.. Try and try.. Until my heart becomes stronger to endure the hurt that life offers everyday.